writing this on the way back home because i am scared that i will forget how this feels
i mean yes of course i took pictures but i swear no camera can do this woman justice she came out in the middle of her own song but somehow made us believe she was going through all those emotions in each track for the first time in her life i mean she laughed and played coy and screamed and joked and fell to her knees and prowled the stage like a lion and jumped up in the air and never broke character and used a fresh guitar for each track because why not and she smacked the pedals at her feet to close out a song and asked if someone had a cigarette and performed her heart out for an audience that included a guy yelling we love you in that ridiculously beautiful building and honestly dude same
and then she sang new york
she kissed hands and danced in the aisle with us and we were all clapping along and then we messed up the orchestra’s rhythm somehow and she was like whatever it’s loose and did it all over again and i’m sorry my vocabulary is inadequate point is i don’t think i blinked for five minutes
this is all very corny and i’m sure i’ll regret this tomorrow morning but at least for tonight, i am very, very, very happy